Lately, I feel like losing myself. In a journey to understand what is actually happening to our ummah, specifically our community, I started to indulge myself in various ideologies and philosophies. I don't know, I just get started. But somehow it feels like my mind has been drifted away by the madness flow of philosophy. I'm aware, as Imam Ghazali said, that this field is poisonous. So, I put a border in my mind so I won't get lost. But that's it. Tonight, I guess my mind journey should rest for a while, hiatus. After days, I don't feel like myself in me, reading and revising Quran, as if I'm a robot.
That's really scary though. I'm not kinda person that loses focus easily. My outer side may look childish, but, my inner side usually works effectively. But this thing. I don't know how to explain it. I shared the tip of the iceberg with Asyraf and Firas. Well, they returned my sense. Alhamdulillah. Thanks friends. Now let my mind cooperates with my soul. Feel it! Yeah! Exam, here I come. 1 week to go!